Finally, an actual good reason for my recent silence: For the past few weeks — more like couple of months, really, but who’s counting? — I’ve been doing a delicate dance with a potential new employer. The job, I should note, sounded perfect for my skillset, so after some initial hesitation I went after it. And they went for me. And so began the stomachache-inducing sequence of furtively scheduling interviews around existing time off and polishing of resume, the obsessive checking of e-mail and voicemail and the heart-pounding calls to let me know I’d move on in the process.
It’s a stressful process, even with a job already in hand, especially this time because I just wanted it so much. I may have my frustrating days, but I do enjoy what I do at my current gig. Even so, the spot was everything I liked plus one, like a huge jump up in every aspect that I find interesting.
During that time, I kept quiet. I tried to keep quiet everywhere I could, especially publicly. Part of that was discretion, so as not to do a disservice to either the current employer or the potential new one. Part of that was irrational superstition on my part, trying not to jinx an amazing opportunity. I told family, and I told a very small number of friends, and I stayed as quiet as possible here and on Twitter and on Facebook and everywhere else.
No need now. During a call for which my heart was literally pounding hard enough to hurt my head, the new employer’s human resources rep extended an offer that I accepted, and happily.
I spent yesterday and the day before telling my current employers and some fellow employees, laying the groundwork for my exit. And on myself: Mentally preparing for a shift in what had become a comfortable, if tiring, schedule; a jump to a new and unknown and intimidating workplace; a move from the reliable and skilled co-worker to The New Guy.
With the most difficult parts (at least, until my first day) behind me, I felt freed to write again. So here I am, begging indulgence from you and from Evan, who has received lots of hugging and loving to offset my obvious stress, but no letters. I can’t promise regular writing until I fully grok my new job, but I can promise more regular writing. And that’s something.