Hey, y’all –

It’s a dark, strange morning in Kitaree.

I haven’t been able to sleep. After Tony disappeared, the rest of my guys and I got assigned to help clear out the courthouse. I can’t wait to tell you all about it. You’re not going to believe a word, even though I swear it’s true.

But here’s the thing:

I just heard something from the other room of my trailer. Something outside my bedroom door.

Something — someone — just said, loud and clear, “Help me out here.”

It wasn’t Tony’s voice.

There’s a baseball bat in the corner. Good solid wood.

It just spoke again: “Help me out here.”

Something’s breathing hard just outside the door.

I’m going to check it out.

So –

It’s been a quiet week in Kitaree. Real quiet.

Tony’s disappearance had us all rattled. Seriously: Nate, Howie, ‘Nacio and I waited for hours at that stupid house. Howie and ‘Nacio went to work on the portion of the tree out on the lawn, all of the roots and a good length of trunk, but it was half-hearted. After the first half-hour, Howie made a call, I guess to the guys who handed out hard hats and assignments every morning.

Another half-hour after that, another team showed, this time with flashlights. The Asian guy was with them, the one from the antiques shop. The big boss. He stayed outside while the rest went in.

We… we just stood there, hands down our metaphorical pants. Howie and ‘Nacio chopped. Nate smoked. I tried to crack a joke to the boss, something about how losing a guy out of the gate meant we were all fired.

“No, I’ve got more work in mind for you.” I don’t know. He said it normally, but I could practically hear a musical sting.

They never found Tony. The guys spent a couple of hours in that house, I guess going room to room. Said he must’ve hit a back door and just done a runner. Why not? We were all transients, really, glorified day laborers on the state’s dime. Tony probably figured the work was bullshit and saw a way to get down the road.

I almost lit out after that. Who cares about homecomings, right? I lived without Kitaree for years, and I could do it again.

I didn’t. Nate did. He didn’t show up for our assignment the next morning.

So, like I said, quiet week. The remaining three of us got the rest of our time off, and next week we get to go straight to HQ (in this case, Christianson’s Antiques) instead of talking to some clipboard guy in a pickup.

I don’t know why, but it feels like y’all should wish me luck. Something’s coming.

Happy Friday, all –

It’s been a busy week in Kitaree.

Busy enough that I’ll let slide your painting last week’s nightmare as melodrama, Chris. Sure, it was a dream, but it still hit me hard. There’s nothing wrong with expressing that.

As for the Bobby thing, I don’t want to talk about it yet, okay?

Especially not after what happened to Tony. Cree-pee.

Okay, so Tony’s one of the guys on my team that I mentioned last week. Antonio Ruilopez. He always went by Tony, though, and tried his hardest to completely ignore his… I don’t know, his national identity. His heritage. Nationality, I suppose, though I never really found out where he was from, originally. For all I know, it was Houston.

But man, every time Ignacio rattled off rapid-fire Spanish at Tony, he’d just stare back. Never once acknowledged whether he understood. He talked in this very accentless Midwestern network news anchor tone, you know?

So, this week’s gig was pretty simple: Cut a tree out of a house. I won’t say “fallen tree,” because the thing looked like the storm picked it up and threw it javelin-style right into this place. No damage to the roof at all, just swoosh in the front windows with the roots on the lawn.

The five of us get out there and are given axes — like, lumberjack old-school axes — because apparently there’s so much cutting going on that all the chainsaws are taken.

The rest of us were gearing up, but Nate just stood at the curb staring at the place. Took long enough that I walked over and asked what was going on.

“Damn thing crawled in there, man.”

I mean, come on, right? It’s a solid house. Lots of brick, three stories, not a lot of windows except around that front area. I guessed aloud that the tree got a lucky hit, and would’ve bounced right off otherwise.

“Naw, man.” He shook his head and then turned those baggy eyes on me. “Look at the ground. Fuckin’ thing dragged itself.”

I mean, yeah, there was a big old trench in the yard, but I’ve written about similar shit all over Kitaree. What’d you expect, with wind strong enough to pick up and move trees?

“Come on, man.” I motioned toward the front door. “Let’s get in there and get this thing done. Bet we can get half by lunch, and then I’ll buy.” I doubted that — this tree was huge — but food is usually a pretty good motivator.

“Fuck no. It’s dark in there.” And sure enough, he lit up a smoke and crossed his arms: No go.

I shrugged. His loss. I liked Nate, short as I’d known him, but inevitably getting fired was his own damn fault.

I gotta say, after I got a few steps into the place, I was ready to go back to where Nate was standing. The tree punched a nice hole through the front windows, but otherwise the place was dark. Creepy dark, for a sunny fall morning. This place had like no windows. I couldn’t even see to the end of the tree; it just stretched and faded in the dark.

“I’ll leave that shit to your young eyes,” Howie drawled, and stepped back outside to work on the roots. Ignacio just started chopping, right at the edge of the light. Tony looked at me, shrugged and headed into the back of the house. I watched him melt: A figure, a shadow, an outline and then nothing.

I should’ve gone back there too. I should’ve gone back with him. But y’all, I was afraid in that moment. I was dead certain that I’d walk back there and find Bobby grinning next to me in the blackness.

I’m not going to lie: It was nice to work my arms, the monotony of swing, impact, pull. I got into a zone. I lost time. And then Tony was calling for me.

“Help me out here.” His voice carried from the darkness. I jumped a little, but he didn’t sound hurt or scared or anything, so I turned.

It came again: “Help me out here.”

“Hold your damn horses.” I thought about leaving the ax, and then realized that was about the stupidest idea I’d had all day. Instead, I hefted it onto a shoulder and walked slowly along the fallen trunk.

Got so dark soon I couldn’t see, so I trailed my hand along the trunk as I walked. “Tony? Where the fuck are you, man?”

Again: “Help me out here.”

I stopped. He didn’t sound any closer, but he still didn’t sound worried at all. Just that flat anchorman affect floating through the black.

The tree touched me then. I swear it. I do. It took hold of my hand, I don’t know, a thin branch, the feel of dead leaves, and tried to hold me.

I ran. I ran for the front, surprised the hell out of ‘Nacio and then Howie. I ran until I hit full daylight and ran a bit more, until I was in the middle of the street. Nate looked at me and coughed a laugh.

The other guys came out, and when I explained what happened, they started calling for Tony. But they didn’t go back into the house.

He didn’t come out. He never came out.

Hi, all –

It’s been a busy week in Kitaree.

I’m not gonna lie: Getting lost last week threw me. I know this town, you know? It’s not that big, and I spent a lot of my life here once upon a time. Yeah, the place is a mess right now, but… these were clean, lived-in streets with names I’d never seen before.

I’m doubting myself, though. It’s been more than a few years. It’s entirely possible some rogue town council went on a renaming spree. And it’s possible I don’t remember how the streets are laid out as well as I thought.

Maybe.

Let’s talk about something a bit more grounded in reality, no? I started the new gig this week. I’m not going to lie, there’s something nice about rolling out of bed and into my grungiest clothes instead of picking out the perfect cufflinks and getting my hair just right. Nobody cares when you’re rocking a hard hat and neon yellow safety vest, you know?

The downside is that I’m essentially a day laborer. I wander down to the courthouse square (yes, I still walk it, and no, I haven’t gotten lost again) and wait with a bunch of other guys for a team lead or foreman or whatever they’re called. The cleanup work’s been going on a while, but apparently these guys blow in and out of town all the time, so there’s always a need.

My team’s five guys: Ignacio, a scrappy little guy who constantly talks about food; Howie, a big bald burly kid with a red nose who probably should be in community college somewhere; Tony, whose real name is Antonio but seems desperate to leave his heritage behind; Nate, a tall, thin African-American who rarely talks; and yours truly. Nate keeps to himself, but the rest of us fell pretty easily into a joking camaraderie over the course of the week. I mean, it’s manual labor — emphasis on the labor — so there’s a lot of time we’re just cutting fallen trees into manageable hunks instead of sharing our hopes and fears, but we get along.

Good thing, too. Looks like unless someone moseys on down the road, we unskilled guys are going to be together for a while.

So, happy happy joy joy this week, right? Mostly. But it can’t be Kitaree without things getting weird, I guess.

I have to think this part was a dream, because… well, it just has to be, okay?

It’s quiet around here at night. Even at the edge of the forest, where you’d expect all sorts of animal and tree noises — hell, where I *remember* all sorts of animal and tree noises from my wayward youth — it’s quiet. Creepy quiet. So quiet I actually sleep more lightly than I did in the city with all its noise.

A couple of nights ago, it was so quiet that I could hear something rustling around outside my trailer. Someone, I knew, even half-asleep, because the noises had a purpose. Someone was outside my trailer, and I was pretty sure they were trying to get in.

So I grabbed my sword.

What, you don’t have a sword at your bedside? Here’s the thing: Neither do I. It must have been a dream. Must have.

I opened the door, sword in hand — god does that sound cool, in retrospect — and sure enough, there was a shape, a naked man shape, in the darkness outside my trailer. And he also had a sword, as you do.

Swordfighting always looks so cool in the movies, but this was more like a bar fight, more grappling and shoving and punching than swords connecting. The occasional clang-clang, sure, but really we were wrestling there in the darkness.

I got the guy, knocked him onto his back. He was down. I could tell he was down. But I was angry and panting and fired up, and… Well. I kissed him. Hard. And he kissed me.

And when I pulled away for a moment, it was Bobby. My Bobby. He was looking and me, and grinning, a mischievous wicked slash of white in the moonlight, and said, “See you soon.”

That was it. Darkness, and then I woke up. No sword, but I was naked and covered in dirt. So.

Oh, one more thing:

It can’t have been Bobby. I killed Bobby.